U can just ____ ur ______ days

Ugh just when I think my life couldn't get MORE screwed up then it already was it just flips and turns on me. God I hate my life.
AHHH.! I know how many times have you heard someone talk about their crappy days, but you have no idea how badly crappy days are until you've been in my shoes. It's like hiking 2 miles in .... heels. Yes it was THAT bad. I fuckin' cried about this guy just cause some girl was flirting with him. It's like, dude, bitch, back off. But it's not like I CAN do that, because he doesn't like me back. Yes the complicated part. But c'mon, for me that is just TOO DAMN PATHETIC. Crying over some girl and some guy? The worst part is that I wish he kidna knew that I was like cryin...over him.... I mean like that I could like a guy so much, that I could like *him* so much that I would CRY over him, if only he knew that he meant dat much to me. Oh well, that's just another teenage sob story. I'll live. I'm not a drama queen, I just have my occasional moment =] There's alot of shit in my life that I want to be better. I want to be happy. Hahaha it sound stupid and it is, I should just enjoy my life right? WRONG. Everytime I get like tiny glimpse of happiness someone has to come and ruin it for me. Maybe giving up would be the best idea? Idk. I don't know anythin anymore. But I guess I'll find out -_- Goody. Anyways just needed to rag on the public.

Take 2934820394 ABC!

Hahaha still thinking about him...It's like I have nothing better to do with my life then blog about him nonstop. This is like the 7th post about him, which is a new record for anyyyyy gui I've ever liked, so you can tell he is one hell of a gui to me ;-) I should probably find a hobby, but I guess this also counts =]. Lemme give you a short summary from all the previous posts about wut I think about him:
1. I think he's incredibly nice and sweet.
2. I don't think he's a *beeeeeeeppingg beeeper beeepity beep beeeepp*.
3. I think he's really cute =] Like a teddy bear that you just wanna hug soooo badly ;-)
4. I don't care if he's popular or not, and that takes one hell of a gui to make me think like that.
5. He brings out the best in me, even during the shittiest day of my life.
6. He makes me feel less of a flaming idiot. [ Me? An idiot? Pshhhh hell naw.]
7. He does not, and never will, unless his life is in danger, ever, EVER go out with me.
8. I Luv Him so incredibly much that if some random guy teases me about him, I'd totally be ok with that, and so would my middle finger ;-)
9. He's totally awesome in the way that he makes you feel special when you're sad. It's like he can read my mind o_O
10. If he ever read my blog and thought the same thing bout me....then that's all I'd ever need in my life =]
11. He's freaking hilarious! I laugh so freaking hard sometimes I'm about to pee in my pants LMFAO
12. If he were ever to hug me, like seriously, I swear to god if he EVER hugs me..I'd never make him let me go....*sighz*
13. I think he has my number :-/ Ehh no idea, but I hope he calls soon :-! hearing his voice makes me less stressed...or more stressed... either way it's the good kinda stress =P. I'm gonna be like WAITING by my phone until he calls :)
14. I wish he'd ask me out... It's like killing me, cause I soo badly want him to, I mean like..he rejected me, but you still can't help but dream a little rite? Who knows.. I might not be dreaming =]
15. I neva felt this way about any guy, EVER! rofl. He's just so different in the best way possible, he's everything I've ever wanted in a guy, and more. If only I was his dream girl too.

If you're reading this [ you know who you areeeeee...] then you should know that someoneeee *sommmeeeonnnnneeee* is totally crushing on you. Like *crushing* crushing. Like BIG TIME crushing! And sometimes you just gotta take a risk with someone, cause one day, they'll stop waiting for you, just when you realize what a huge mistake it was to let her go. So if your gonna do something, DO IT NOW, before *someone* gets so tired of waiting, she ups and leaves. Cause this someeeonnneee luvs you so much that she's waiting for you, and isn't that enough for any girl to go through? How much more could you want in a girl? For her to stalk you for god's sake!!! She loves you so much-this someone- and u should DO SOMETHING, do ANYTHING to show her that you wanna be wit her. Cause if u don't like this someeeonnee tell her, so she can just get over you, and she can just stop wasting her time thinking about you. Every. Single. Day.

And now that I think about it, this is ONE HELL of a short summary man.

Take...crap I ran outta make believe numbers..Let's use letters!!!

OH.
MY.
FREAKING.
GAWD.
We threw a tampon at the guy that I wuvvv [even though he hates me....] It was so hilarious, at first I was expecting a scream or something but nada. I just like went to go see what was happening and he had *THE* cutest laugh and smile. It was laugh your ass off funny. So funny I'm actually wasting my time blogging about it. And we just kept picking it up and throwing it at him, and it wasn't like hahaha funny it was like HAHAHA funny. The kind of funny where you actually feel like you can laugh like a psycho, which I did =] He just kept like running away from it and like dodging it with his ninja skills =P Of course! People make fun of me cause I like him, and at this point I'm just like swearing at dem and like pushing them against walls. But one day man...I swear to god one day...one day he's gonna be my b/f =] and then I'll be da one making fun of those single losers! It's gonna be a helluh long time till that, but some things are worth waiting for, even if that means throwing tampons in the mean time ;-) He's just da cutest, nicest, sweetest, most awesomest guy ever. EVER. Haha sorry bout that folks, got a lil' over board there for a sec. U know how it is...u....don't?? Oh...never mind them....

Take One Jillion Four Mil..-aw whatever alreadii

I know my last post was "Heart Broken" but whatevers, can't help but wuv your crush on valentines day right? Just so it would suck a little less. I got him a valentines day card which was like 3 bucks, which is pretty *beeeeping* expensive for a card, but I guess it was worth it. Until this Dick face ass hole took his card and made fun of him, along with alotttta other people. And you know how people call me violent? I know silly right? Well I just wanted to see if these guys thought that too...apparently...they did. Who woulda thunk it? All I did was push them against the wall, you know...just to see if they could see it too. But I don't know, I guess I still like him. Hahaha who am I kiddin'? He's da luv of my life, my pathetic lil' life XD. What's just da cutest thing is the way he panicks when I put his stuff in the girls bathroom =P. I told him he should've told me who he liked, but nopes, he just had to disagree with me. But unlike all the shit I did to the other j@ck@$$3$ at my school you know, like pushing them down stairs, throwing their shoes off railings, giving "light taps" on the shoulder, and of course the classic water "spill" in embarassing places :P. Instead I just put his stuff in the girls bath room and watch him try to get it back. Pretty hilarious. Valentines was pretty nice, except for some man whores and girl sluts that ruined all of it for me, but whatevers right? Hahaha no! Right...just...kidding. =] Of courseness. As usual it was just another " happy single awareness day". Still can't stop thinking bout him and his smile, his laugh, and his tennis racket that I stole ;-).

Heart Broken

I feel like someone ripped my heart out, threw it on the ground, and ran it over with a tow truck. How could I have been so stupid? To think that he could've liked *me*? Psh.. I guess I really was delusional. I know you're supposed to learn from your mistakes, but for once, I don't want it to be a mistake. It started off as a stupid rumor, him liking me, but like then I got to know him more, and he was really this awesome person that I never really noticed till some people brought it to my attention. But like..I don't know why I liked him so much...he was different, and in a good way. Even though he rejected me, I still smile when I think about him, but it's not in the way I used to, now it's just full of like....regret and sorrow. If someone got a gun and shot me right now...I'd pretty much be okay with that. Especially how all your friends say how he's stupid if he doesn't like me and he's missing out a great person...but I don't buy that bull shit...I think they all saw this coming but I guess they all saw how happy I was and they didn't want that to end. I know he's probably like going to read this blog eventually, and when he does that's just great. Cause then maybe he'll know HOW MUCH i luved him. Obviously enough to blog about it. But I guess that... he's *just* a guy. He's *just* another stupid little crush. He's *just* another mistake. And I'm *just* not good enough for him. And if you're reading this right now [ you know who you are] hope I forget you as easily as you forgot me.

*Sighz...* Take One Billion Three Hundred Thirty Two

I feel like a complete and total idiot, in a good way..if that's possible. Someone....I'm not saying who :-/ hid his stuff in the girl's bathroom. Which was really funny, because it was really in an empty locker XD. It was soooo cute and funny the way he was all panicky and looking for his laptop case, his planner, and his english binder =]. It's funny the way he smiles, even when he's all pissy. It's cute the way he's pissy, cause it's like... he doesn't really get mad, it's just idk. I ran outta words. I think this was one of the most best crushes I've ever had. Who knew someone could make you smile so much, even when you're at your worst.