It's been quite a while

Well, I've missed you blogger. I really have. And trust me, not much has changed. Still the troubled rebel teen. Some things never do change.

I Shall Not Let Myself Fall...

Have you ever convinced yourself out of liking someone, or anyone in general, because you won't allow yourself to get hurt? I can't decide whether this is a good method or not. Am I protecting my own self too much? am I sheltering my self in such a way that I don't let the bad nor the good happen to me? I know fate is fate, and what shall happen shall happen, but in a way, I'm stopping fate, and I'm changing what could happen...

Oh @#$%^.

I'm messing with the universe again.

What Can I Say?

I have a secret.

Let's keep it between us.

If I could change myself, I'd be 20lbs skinnier.

I'd do anything.

Mysteries in life.

What is wrong with me?

Can I ever be loved?

My Essence.

My essence,
bottled and capped,
Each breath you take,
Feel it.
Take it in.
It captivates you,
And you’re drawn to my love,
But my essence starts to leak,
You catch them like drops of rain,
Please,
Pour them back into me,
Who am I without what I am?
You’ll always have a part of me,
But please don’t take what you don’t need.

A Battlefield.

Love and life is a battlefield,
& Ask yourself,
"Who are you fighting for?"
"What do you stand for?"
"And what does that say?"
"Would you be proud to go down that way?"
Your words cut like knives,
But your actions are killer,
The lies and the truths are nothing but fillers,
Love is nothing without trust on it's side,
Trust must be given,
& Will be received in time,
So pick your battles,
& Pick your wars,
Always look ahead,
But never straight forward.

Sonnets :O

Feeling kind of lost on roads I walk on,
Trying to find my footsteps within a crowd,
Walking in all directions until I'm gone,
I try to hear the silence though it's loud.

There are some paths I wish I didn't choose,
But wrong or right they've taken me to here,
Got everything to gain, but none to lose,
Live life in doubt is to live life in fear.

The whole world lies in front of my own eyes,
But I'm not quite sure where I want to go,
I'll listen to the truths as well as lies,
The heart will know just where it wants to go.

But is there even more out there for me?
I guess there's more to life than what I see.