Lonely-ness.

How do you make someone understand how alone you feel? How do you get someone to really feel how you feel? I'm surrounded by so many people who love me....But I feel like I'm dreading each day as it just comes and go's. What's the point of believing that something great and magical is going to happen the next day, if you're just going to be disappointed that it didn't? I really...want...*need* someone... Someone that's as special to me as I am to him. Not just cause I'm a delusional psychopath, but because I want to know that someone like that actually exists. That happiness can be real, and that loneliness can be a thing of the past.
And then sometimes you actually do find someone like that...but they just can't meet you halfway there. And that really sucks butt. But of course the guy of your dreams wouldn't settle for someone as plain and simple as yourself right? Of course...

Clumsy + Bug phobia = Bad parenthood

I have officially claimed my rightful place as the most clumsiest person in the world. Well, atleast 'my' world. In the past like 4 days I've fallen over a lane line, ran into a wall at the mall, and I've stepped on a needle. Isn't it so weird how all the forces in the universe just seems to point it's leftover karma right at me? There was also this like big (non-related) family dinner (of course), and no one would let me help them do anything... I guess they're all jealous of my coordinated..ness...ity... If you put a boiling pot of chunky (questionable) tofu in my hands, do you really think I would drop it? Well I wouldn't INTENTIONALLY drop it. And I also have like a phobia of bugs... I just can't look at bugs or 'kill' them or TOUCH them. It's just so incredibly grotesque in my mind. You shoulda seen me when I was just a lil kid. I was running and screaming as I ran away from those friggin butterflies. Have you ever seen that episode of Spongebob where Sandy leaves and Spongebob and Patrick were scared of the butterfly? First of all, that episode scarred me for life, ESPECIALLY when they zoomed in on the butterfly O.O And second of all.... I set towns on fire too when I see ...ugh...bugs... Which all leads up to one thing.. I would be THE. WORST. PARENT. EVER. Like seriously... we depend on our parents to help us when we fall and squish the nasty bugs in our rooms...Well how am I supposed to do any of that? I'd be the one falling down and running away from the..ugh...bugs...So all those aspiring parents out there...GET A THERAPIST...AND HURRY!!

"I Kissed a Girl" By Kate Perry

Have you seen the music video for I Kissed a Girl by Kate Perry? Because I just saw the most hilarious comment on Youtube for that video XD.
"How can you make a music video with a song about lesbian fantasies and not do anything with the girls in your video?"
Well that's a very uhm..."interesting" question.... And you just can't help but to imagine what kind of person wrote that comment o.O
And by the way....
Why are the songs about lesbians but not like... gay people? Like... guys...?
ANYWAYS
The song "I Kissed a Girl" isn't that bad actually.
It's kindof a good song :D whoohoo!
It just wouldn't be the same if a guy sang it..
:)